nEw lIfe, nEw cHapter!

i wanna open new chapter in my life..after what had happen lately..its the biggest mistake in our relationship..and i cant believe what had happen between us..but now..i already accept his mistake like he do when i did the same mistake last2 year..i try to accept and face the real life now..not everyone perfect..as long as we are human, we still make some mistake..i know it..and thats make me accept the reality..after what had happen..i learn to accept his weakness and his mistake..i know he will never ever do the same mistake again..i know how he feel because i also did the same mistake before and i know how suffering it is..its no use to regret what had happen..now..past is past..i dont wanna think bout it and try to accept it although it was hurt like hell..but i learn to face it.. i know and i believe..he will never ever betray me and do the same mistake again..and so do i..people learn from mistake..like people always say,experience is the best teacher..we will not do it again because we know how it feel..

i dont care what people will say bout him or about us..i trust him..whatever it is,,i still love him..its hard to see he hurt too..i know what he feel and he know mine too..thats make us stronger again..now..we forget and delete that mistake and try to build a beautiful life after this..hope this new year bring us a good moment and make us stronger than before..and no more stupid mistake like that again..

btw..HAPPY NEW YEAR all..have a great and bless life out there! =)

ConFius!

im confius!im stress!im crazy! i have no filing..

all i know and feel now is..nothing!

cOngRatS gUys!

i juz wanna share a bit about my friends here..im very proud of them because they have won the SEJIWA SENADA BATTLE OF THE BAND! and the got 3 best award in their group..best vocalist, best guitarist and also best bassist.. congrats guys..

they play sejati song and also sweet child o mine..they got nice intro on final..everybody enjoy their show..and of coz im so proud of my dear although he didn't get the best drummer tittle but i know he already try his best to be 1..and he's always the best for me..!

CONGRATS MISUNDERSTOOD!

im back after CHRISTMAS!

hi!! im back! hahaa..merry christmas all! im juz coming back from my year-end-vacation..almost 1 month i been away from my home..and now..i wanna share my vacation's story..this christmas is quite boring..coz not many people come back and celebrate christmas at my village..and also so buzy everyday with non-stop work..

and i had some story here..we almost accident when we come back from my village yesterday..my mom's car been crash by a land cruser..actually both wrong..and im the one who drive that time..i was so scared..thanks GOD..we all safe..and almost accident fro 3 times..so dangerous..thanks god again now..we all safely arrive in kapit..

i cant wait to see my dear now..i miss him so much! almost 1 month i didn't see him..=)

btw..MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!

hi!

hey guys..its been a long time i didnt post anything here..well..sorry..i have attend the Youth Convention at borneo Tropical rainforest Resort at miri..it such a blessed event..i have learn alot there guys..and i have made new friends..very enjoy and very blessed by Jesus Christ,,after 4 days 3 night we spend there, i have learn so many things..thanks God for that..

now, im blogging at my brother house..i miss my niece so much! she's so cute and playfull..and she's so friendly..she like to playing arround..may be another a few days im here..then, my family will bring me back to my village..i really wanna enjoy at miri first before im going back to my Village..

and of coz i miss my dear so much..hopefully, he doing good there..may God bless him always and take care of him..im done here..so..tadaa..=)

hangging out with the Boys!

today..im hanging out with my boyfriends..awsome! gonna miss them after this..no jamming,no lepaking no laughing with them..last hanging out for this year i think..coz tommorow im leaving to Miri..

today..we all hanging out at waterfront..then, lepak at Open Air..after that, jamming..we all have some fun today..when im with them..i feel happy cause they are funny! i always happy when im going out with my friends!

we'll meet again after christmas! see u soon guys! gonna miss this moment! take care of my boifren! aahaha..

im Leaving Tomorrow..

hi guys..i leaving tomorrow..im going to Miri..a bit sad..

coz im will be far apart from my Mr.Obey..but a bit excited!

im going to meet my niece..Dedeq!

mom say we will use 7am's express..it so early..may be i will use afternoon bus..

then, preparing for youth convention at Borneo Rainforest Resort for 3 days!

i dont bring much things..i just bring a lil cloths..my sis and a lots of

my cousin will join that convention of course..

feel excited bout it.. hopefully we all been blessed..then. next journey after miri is my village!

we will celebrate Christmas at my village of course! so guys..happy holiday all..after thies, i will post my story from Miri..=)

PARAMORE FEVER!

PARAMORE!! goshh..i really got paramore fever now..really addict to this band..i love all their songs..its so nice and good! really love HAYLEY..she's so adorable..beside, she's cute and funny..i start to collect all their video, their pics and their songs..i wish..i can see their live concert..i wish i can see them live! my favorite song is HALLELUJAH! its so nice..all i can say is..i love PARAMORE! =P

grEat dAy!

wiii~ im so happy today..i've made it! i can sing the Pressure and Karma song...so nice..so cool..so great!they want me to sing this song during the battle of the band in this december.. i really wanna join them..but i cant..T.T..i already go back to Miri that time..this weekend..im going to Miri..T.T..i wish i can join them..i wanna join them !

i dont wanna miss!dont want! dont want! its the great opportunity i ever have..T.T..i hope, next time..i can join them..i really hope 4 that..T.T

oHh~ my nEck !

ouch..my neck..its hurt..uwaa! i cannot look down now..its hurt ! it's hurt because...last nite, i was practice how to carried paramore-pressure song and doing some head bangging..-.-".. ahh~ hurt bha..haiyaa...dont laugh2 at me..i know its stupid but what can i do..ohohoho..another problem today is the CELCOM line..aiya..always cannot send massages because of the line is not good..its so annoying bha..huh! btw,,cant wait for jamming tomorrow! yey!

i miSs thIs timE

*my course mate*

i miss my coursemate a.k.a classmate when i still study in MMC..i miss the class scenario..all the laugher, kacau mengacau time..discussing time, presentation time..study time..oh..i miss it so much..miss to make joke with lecturer and friends..miss when we all share some food or sweet..i remember when lecturer give an assignment to us..last minutes then we will do it and ask from other group some tips bout how to do it..ask whether they have done it or not..go and print it at the library..cheating time Quiz and Midterm..argghh..really miss that time..luckily..one of our lecturer have our picture..i will never forget the moment when i'm in class..so many ragam..FYI..our class is the biggest class in that college..almost 40 student in the class..and our intake *JULAI 2008* is the most biggest amount of student who register in this college..almost 80 student..aww..miss it!

wHy cAnnOt iT bUrn!!

grrrr!! i was trying to burn some music to a disc but always failed!! im so FED UP with this and that ERROR! dammit! y cant just it burn easily as ussual! feel like wanna "POWER RANGERS" this cd burnner..aiyahh! spoil my mud only! grr!

iT's hUrt..T.T

IT'S HURT!! uwaaa...i feel like wanna punch2 my stomach...goshh..why must i have SENGGUGUT during period...im sweaty but i cannot on the fan..if i do on the fan..i feel so2 cold..everything jadi serba x kena..T.T...ouchhh...dear..its hurt..T.T really3 hurt! what should i do?? everytime i'm having my "special" time..always senggugut..aiyoo..pls la sengugut..go away bha from me..u are killing me with ur pain..HELP ME!!

p/s : can anybody tell me how can reduse this senggugut pain?? =.=

tOdaY !

today..i went jogging with my bOo and our friend, man..although at first, it was raining, but then, we can continue jooging after a few minute when the rain stop. i can run untill 2 rounds now and make a push up 50 times..waa..feel happy..after we jogging, me, man n dear go and relax at kedai cina sambil minum2 and share2 story..many funny story that we share while we drink untill man "mengantoikan" obey last nite..i was laughing out loud after i see my bOo try to cover up..i know he lying but its okey..im not mad because he didn't do something stupid behind me..but it was so funny..

when man tell me what they do last nite..my dear looks nervous..1st,i didnt notice it..but then, i was blur why he look nervous, but then i realize that he said he was going to bed last nite..but actually, he was at his cousin's house, lepak2 with his friends..and i was laughing after i realize it..

and now, im in my "special" day..goshh..i really2 dont like this..because i having some senggugut..its hurt so much!!grrrr!! i dont like this pain..huh! cant wait to finish this "special" day..=.="

p/s : please be carefull with girl who had a "special" day because their mode is unpredictable..=.=

f.R.i.E.n.D.s

everyone does have their own bestfriends..so do i..im feel so happy that a fews of my bestie have their own blog..so i can know how they feels now, what they've went trough in their life..and i feel being appreciate because they have mention my name in their blog..aww..sweettt...

u know guys *friends*..i love u all..i miss u guys also..ur place never been replace by any other people..but cyesly..i miss u guys a lot!

my dear friends *SAN,WEWEN,JAS,HENI,NES,GRACE,ERIC,MANDA,YEN,BETH,MEL,JAC,YUS* u guys a very amazing person! for 2 1/2 years i've been study there..we always laughing and crying together..miss that moment so much !

dont throw stone ar..always stay connect to eachother..i always miss u guys..muaahh!!

p/s : friends never been replace!

PARAMORE FEVER..T.T

argghh..my brain tired of remember all the paramore songs..first, BORING BRICK..then DECODE and PRESSURE..i feel so tired..although i really wanna make it..my friends ask me to sing this song during jamming on this Wednesday..they wanna test me..if i can make it, may be they will ask me to join them..

but its really hard for me to remember all the lyrics and all the music..T.T..i've listen to the paramore songs over and over again untill i get confuse which lyric belong to which songs..T.T..BUT!

i have decide it! i will put more effort here..i got a few more days to concur this songs..i want and will make it happen! and i hope they will satisfy with me..if they dont..well..i cant say anything..i'll accept it coz i already try my very best!

p/s :wish me luck!

i fEeL sO dOwn

last nite, i had a bad bad time..i fight with him about something ridiculous..its my fault..i know its my fault..hurm..and it always be my fault..sometimes, i feel so tired of fighting at the same problems.. but..what can i do..we always repeat the same things..that things never end so well..

i really feel so down..i dont know what to do..im tired of this feeling..i dont wanna fight anymore..but as u all know..without fight, ur relationship is not well. every fight makes ur relationship more stronger, because from fight, u learn to improve ur relationship..

p/s : i wish i can meet him and apologize..T.T

L.O.V.E !

LOVE! is the best thing we ever had in our life..LOVE with our Family, LOVE with our GOD, LOVE with our friends and the most specials is LOVE with our special someone..but here..i wanna share a story bout my special one..we met in year 2006, when we both still in form 4..its such a beautiful moment in our life..

we met at my school, when he was joining the Dikir Barat competitions that been organizing by my school..since i met him..things change around me..i learn how to be a good person, learn how to take care of a person..the day when we met each other is the best day that GOD give in my life..

i will always try my very best to be a good girlfriend to him..and i will never stop loving him..and everyday..i always say I LOVE U to him and he also say the same thing to me every day..he always try his best to make my dream come true..one of my dream is receiving a rose from LOVE!

and on valentine day 2009, he give me a purple rose with a chocolate..aww..he's really2 sweet..thanks a lot dear..that was the first time i've receive a rose from a boy..

so now, we still together and we will try to be together forever..we commit to be together untill one of us ask to stop this realtionship..but that will never happen to us..because we both really love each other and already know each other very well and have accepted our weakness and ourself..

to couple out there, TRUST is the most important things in our relationship..if we dont have any trust, our relationship never last for long time..believe me..so many things we've been through too many things together..and that teach us to be more stronger !

p/s : true love only appear once..so appreciate it while u have it ! =)

tiDy uP mY liTtlE roOm

today is holiday for Hari Raya Aidil Adha..so, as usually, boring always inside me..so i do some tidy and cleaning my room since it was very messy *oopss*..i love my room coz it look beutiful..to me lah..and its pink! ahahaa..mostly, i spend most of my day in my room..feel comfortable here..with the aircond, the bed..wahh..mostly i sleep the whole day..ahahaha.in my room, i can do anything...i can cry when i feel sad, i can relax when im tired and i can lepak2..love my room so much! ahahaha

here, i wanna share my room picture..:

i miss my niece..dedeq and odel

time pass so fast..now my niece already grown up..i miss them both..although lama x jumpa...really miss them both..i miss odel with a cute face and quite and dedek with a talkative mouth and so adorable..dedeq just graduate from her nursery and she's dance in her nursery concert..really wanna see her dance..cant wait to go to miri this end of the month to see her..and hopefully, my both brother will be back to village this christmas to celebrate it together..a very long time didn't celebrate chritmas with both of them...to my neice..dedeq and odel..aunty cant wait to see u two..! aunty love u! muah!

p/s : feel old with this "aunty" things..-.-"

siNggIng??

ahahahha! singging?? err.. i love singging but i feel nervous when it come to sing infront of people..my boi's band want to hear my voice sing boring brick by paramore and karma by cokelat..im a little bit confident but the paramore song so tinggi oohh..but i can handle it..only i cant remember the lyric..fuh~ try my best to sing that song! beside! i like singging with live band! ahaha

p/s : wish me gud luck!

yOu'Re bEauTifulL

guys!! this drama! really fun and best! goshh..i've been buzy wathcing this drama so thats why im not blogging for a long time *alasan*..btw..it was a nice drama guys..seriously! im not kidding! well, here i story a bit about this drama..its about a girl name Go Mi Nyiu who has pretend to be her twin brother..Go Mi Nam..she entered a very famous group name A.N.JELL and pretend to be a boy..first, the leader..TeaYung..dont like her but then, slowly he fall in love with her after he know that she is a girl..other group member, Shin Woo and Jeremy also like Go Mi Nam after know her true identity..its was funny, romantic and sad drama..must see guys..i know u will like it as much as i am! really crazy with korean drama now..now im on my way downloading Playfull Kis..sounds fun drama..haha..yeah..

p/s : Korean guys really cute!

bOys oVer fLoweRs

gosshhh..i really like this drama..lots of sad and happy story here..this drama make me realize that, true love doesn't mean to be a lots of happy moment..it need scarifies..its also teach me about life is like a potter..its has been shape, push and been heat at 1300 degree Celsius and it come out with a beautiful result.. life is also like that..we have been through many problems, many challenges but if we though enough, it will be end with a very happy ending..this drama teach me a lot about life..it also make me love my boO more..hoho..beside thats, this drama got alots of hot guys..i love to see the F4..they are quit good looking..really enjoy this drama..

p/s : if u guys watch this drama..the ending make u guys crying all out! ahaha

inSpire mE

this video..really inspire me..now i realize, GOD always be there with me..so do my bOo..everytime i feel like wanna give up, HE will come and raise me up..he will carry me on and walk along with me..HE is my Strength to finish this race..life is a big RACE..we must finish this race even though so much pain, so much challenge, so much trouble and so much problem..i will never give up! chaiyok2 PRIS!

sTory of Today

today, i went to saloon to dye my hair..i choose dark brown punya colour..nice bah..but..there's a funny story for today..when i was waiting for my hair change its colour, there are 1 aunty, who is a friends of that tauke..sitting behind me..i can she her through the mirror..i was messaging with my boo..suddenly, i saw that aunty.. "korek2" her nose..aiyoo..infront of people she "korek2" like that..*can u guys imagine how "feel" she is when she "korek2" her nose..*..eyewww..very the ceridak! i was very not so comfortable looking at her like that..but, what funny for me is..after she "korek2" that bijih timah, she "gulung2" it then..you know what happen???..no, she not throw it, and she not eat it..but! she SNIFF it!! what??it kinnda funny for me..for a while, she sniff at her own "bijih timah??"..eeyyaakkkk..i want to laugh, but takut she know i was looking at her..so i pretend to reading msj then i "sinyum2" sendiri..aiyoo..that aunty..very ceridak bha...after i done my hair..i went to fetch my boo and we went for a jogging..i tell him what happen at the sallon..we both laugh so loudly..so funny that aunty..aiyooo..

p/s : pls dont do something like that in public..quit ceridak bha..huh..eventhough it funny..=P

well..here my new hair :

nice rite..hoho..=P

oh~ my car..

when i was jogging with my bOo just now..suddenly my car "menjerit"..the hon scream so loud..untill people over there "tinguk-tinguk" me and my car..luckily, my boo ada...he pull out the hon's wire..then it stop scream..aiyoo..kuat malu lah..people was lauhing at me..my car ar..so noty..huh! how can she do that to me..and this nite, i feel so "fat" suddenly after eat mee goreng just now..aiyoo..i guess, my stomach doesn't want other food that JACOB now..i feel like some change to my body now..thanks GOD for that..i just keep continue like this untill i get the weight and the body that i want..hopefully, before christmas lah, so i can eat whatever i want..huhu..so now, what i need to do is put more effort on my diet and exercise..chaiyok2..i know i can do it!

p/s : live in healthy life people..huhu..^_^

hOpefUlly i Got thAt jOB

i just apply for a few job at different company..hopefully i git it..coz i really need job rite now..i wanna save money for my convocation day..a fews of my friend already got a job..now..i need to put more effort and try my really2 best to get 1..i need more supporter here..my bro! i need u! pls help me to get this TM job..wuwuwuw..really need 1..i try my best to find 1..i really hope i got that LPKS at JABATAN PERTANIAN..at list, its more saving if i work at my hometown..no need to think bout transport, house, money..oh GOD..pls help me..i dont wanna bother my family for some money here..coz i know their financial problems..aiyoo..where should i find some job now..=.="

nEw rOutinE, nEw liFe

now..i have started my new routine to slim down my body..i really need to do this, for my future also..=P...now..i have manage my new routine..

1. just eat diet crackers "JACOB" for lunch and dinner

2. do exercise everyday.. weather jogging or skipping..

3. control eating

4. do steam once in 2 weeks

if i did this for this 2 month, im sure i will get my slim body back..hopefully, there is no other things can stop me..chaiyo2 pris!

i miSs mY picKkaPoo..='(

suddenly..i feel so sad..i miss my pickapoo..i miss to play with her..i wish i can turn back the time..i wont let her out of her cage...miss pOo2 so much..she always be there and make me smile when i sad...but..i lost her when i was letting her out from her cage to play arround my room..then she missing..i try to search for her..even my friends also help me to find her..but.. sadly..we cant find her..she actually died in the room in front of my room..no wonder i always smell something "busuk" everytime i pass that room..i didn't know that was my beloved pickkapoo body..T.T..im sorry poo2..i have no idea how you can escape from my room and go to that room..im so sorry..T.T.....i miss u poo2..later, if i already stable my life, i will buy 1 to replace u..so that, i will not always remember u..rest in peace my dear poo2..i always love u..T.T

i always miss u pickkapOo..='(

4 yEarS agO

wah! nice body! very slim..uwaaa..is that me??yes! thats me! its 4 years ago..oh man..really want this body back..i miss it..how come i can be so "montel" now..may be FOOD make me like this..so now..i have a mission..i wanna slim back and im gona fight for it!*guess i juz cakap jak..but still malas mok jogging* =.=".. aiyooo..its ok then, i juz need to control my eat habit..and really try to force myself for jogging..most of my friends now already start their "slimming"time..they go jogging and also excercise..but me??aiyoo..i try ar *mark my word*..i really want this body back! very the mengancam! ahahaha..starting from tomorow..i will go for jogg and also start excersice..*hopefully not talk only*..lazy! suuhh..suuhhh..go away! u play far2 away..i wanna get slim! =p..

ergghhh..need to slim down this body..very "gendut"..=.="

p/s : wish me luck then! ahakz!

haPpy biRthDay sIs!!

here..i wanna say happy birthday sis!! now u oledy add 1 number in your age..24 ody..so..hopefully u succes in ur life!! actually, today is my sis b'day..i never celebrate her birthday together because we never been together on her b'day..only wishes can be say to her...anyways..i kinda miss her actually..we always spend time together and always laughing when we together..i love when her make a "pansuh"..nice bha..so delicious..i miss her pansuh..uwaaa..really wanna eat pansuh rite now..mengidam bah..=P..by the way..happy birthday to her..may GOD always bless her in whatever she do..TQ..

J.O.B

*sigh*..oshh..i really need a job now..i juz realise that i really need money now..its because, i need money for my convocation on August 2011..my friends already plan some activities..go to GENTING and also SUNWAY..its not only that..i need money to start saving for my wedding now..i juz cant only depend on my family's money..but now, every vacancies need graduated student..my friends now ody got their job..that because they lives at BANDAR..here..where got big company..i need 1 job now..i wanna start saving!! i will never give up! chaiyo2 pris..i know i can do it! all i need now is try my best!

p/s : wish me luck guys..and pls pray for me oso..T.T

mY bEaUtifUl viLlaGge

hey reader! i juz wanna share my beautiful village here..i wanna say..i really proud to be a "LEODIANES" here..it because, my villagers got "semangat bekerjasama"..whatever we do, we do it together..every christmas, we all celebrate it with joyfull heart and happiness..i always can't wait for christmas..i love to celebrate it at my village because my villagers was so supporting! my village also got the 3rd place in "ANUGERAH DESA CERMELANG" peringkat kebangasaan..besides, i have a very lovely family there..they were very supporting and happening..my cuzziees2 yg crazy2..my aunties2 and uncles2 yang funny..love it! so much fun..!

yes! thats the view of my village! nice rite..so..come la to my village..we also has provide homestay here..but make sure u guys come during christmas! u will have more fun there untill its make u wanna came again! try it! i'm sure u will come back again! ^_^

mY bLog

my blog is where i wanna share everything i dreams and i've been trough..

so..it must be beautiful like me oso maa.. haha..so..i have done :

1. change the skin

2. put picture here and there..

3. add some music

4. update my story..

so, enjoy exploring my blog k..>.<

my collection

here is some photo that i take and i edit..its my hobby to edit the photo..the beautifulness of the photo make me feel satisfy.. i juz wanna share it with u guys..

this one is at sg rayu

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my fav. one

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the giant 1 malaysia at my village

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this 1 is candit! love it >.<