short-hair-girl thought

hey guys. its been a while. i have soooooo many thought in my mind. mostly, what keep bothering me lately is about what will happen in 2014? am i still work with my current company? or do i have to find another jod? when will i work under permanent post? its it 5-7 years from now on? what should i do if i am no more with skmm? will i do well in my interview next week? what will they ask me? what should i learn? 

see, their's soo many thing to think about. im too tired lately. i keep feel heartache and headache. things are goin wild in my mind. i dont know, with who i want to gain courage?  i just cant get a rest. i feel totally down. and im scared to what happen next year. i've been surrounded by people who are not understand me enough and im struggling myself but when im really down, i know, what for sure, God never leave me alone. He know me well. that is why, everytime i see a life like what i've been dreaming for, i always ask myself, when will i feel that. jealous come sometime. but i keep remind my self " God know what u need. HE has prepare everything. Its depend on us, how we get through His plan for our better future. His way is way beyond our expectation and imagination. so, keep faith in HIM" 

dear reader, even if i dont know u, or u dont know me, but i really appreciate it if u wish me luck. thank you :) 

Love is..

pictures explain everything..

dont afraid to be in love after how many time you've been broken-hearted. you may take a rest, but dont give up on love. may be your prince charming/ princess is out there and still searching for u. they sometimes get lost in the wood, but try to find them. true love is not easy to find. its a treasure and you must find it. 

love while you still can love  :)

37 missed call

when i woke up this morning, i pick my phone and there was 37 missed call and a few massage and wassap. having a bad night. i know he will call me so i silent the phone because im too mad! thousands time i told him i dont want this and that, but stil, he doesnt want to listen. so i though, if i just ignore him like what he did,i

will feel better.  yeahh..better..only for that moment. but when i read all his msj and wassap, the guiltiness come. adohh. *agik asa nak silent2kan phone tek* but when i remember what he had done, its make me push away my guilty. bahh..not only me yg buat salah here. i guess, its gonna be a bigg fight today..hmmmm

*menyesal pn tak guna*

SKMM Raya 2013 Photoshoot

ok guys, what i want to share to day is just a little bit about our Raya Photoshoot. this time, im not wearing any baju kurung because unfortunately, all my baju sudah angkut pg rumah baru. so, i just wear what's left in my closet.  here we are guys. photoshoot! :)

Hot Chocolate for a rainy day

Heavy rain outside the window..its kindda cold and the hot Chocolate is the best drink for this cold situation

Talking bout Rainy day... I love rains. Makes me remember when I was in college, my friends and I love to play in the rain! It such a good memories guys. I miss it. It will be so nice right now if u put ur headphone on and turn on some romantic song, and have a cup of chocolate or coffee on this rainy day. While u were lying on the bed, close ur eyes and flashing back all the goodmemories! Ahh.. Nostalgia ;)

How I wish I am on my bed now, with little timi lying right by my side . But unfortunately, its a working day and working hours, so I am right here, at my office and blogging from here. :)

sooooooo, that's it. Im gonna enjoy my hot chocolate and have a nice day readers ;)

Hello Ramadhan :)

hello ramadhan! well, this time, our office manage an buka puasa event at BCCK. goshhhh, it was heaven for a food lover! why? because there's a lots of food there. so, its worth to save ur belly tummy for the whole day :) like me! *turut menyimpan perut for that night! it was very enjoying night. where we all makan sampai kenyang gilerrrr :D :D. celebrate our july babies and got some goodies *thanks management! :) couldnt believe that we spend almost 3 hours at bcck last night . woahh!

sooo..letmmeh share what i eat last nite :

this was my first round. sooo, i chose, nasi briyani, lamb, some ohh *i forgot what's that yellow thinggy*, kuih and 2 stick of fruit. just to balance it since i dont pick some veggie :P

second round i chose a lamb shank . they say, must try the lamb shank because its quit popular there. so i give a try. aaannnddddd, its good! must grab it early because its too popular u know. *sik lama jak dh abiss* pour some black pepper sauce on it and dammmm. its so yummehh!. then  i go to the paporita   *i guess. lupak suda nama* stall to grab some because i saw lots of my friends grab it. :P and a manggo puding with a strawberry on the top of it :)

 my third round, i pick non-heavy food. i pick a pineapple with belacan , 3 side dish and of course my favourite food, ikan terubuk masin! yummeh!

  

then, my fourth round : satay kambing and ayam with a lots of kuah and mushroom soup. the mushroom soup very delicious. they add crab in it. nice! seriously, very-very-very sedapp :O

and the birthday cake. chocolate banana. lots of us complain it taste like panadol. haha. but i only eat the chocolate! the banana part, i just left it like that :D ;)

and after that makan-makan time, i was suffering the very2 tight tummy sbb terlampau kenyang that night .moral of the story is, dont eat too much pris !

p/s : pls3 dont think imma  bamm person. its because bukan-slalu-kena-blanja-makan at BCCK . its just for one night only i eat a lot. after that, no more eat like a hungry bear :D :D

hey! its Monday!

its monday again.

*lazy for work

*new week start

*say hi to works

*wake up early eventho eyes dont wanna open

*sighhhh~ works, works, works.

how i wish i can go for some vacations without thinking bout how many days my cuti tinggal -.-"

Old Friend

this is maureen richard sandak..people here call her kijan, but me n gubey call her kijongg..hahahahahha

actually, i want to tell kijong that...

kijongggg..i miss u! miss to hang out with u maaa..asai ka..asai ka nuann..:D :D

i miss this moment..where all of us win this futsal competition..:)

p/s : kijongg : buhink maiiiii..mli novel cinta ang nyabak2 maca..imejing diri jadi heroin dlm cita nya..wahahaha..wekk.. ang galing laiiii

want u to know this

but if that person is ur world, then...

i dont know what to do..sorry :P :P

Ko Tau ka?

mesti la ko inda tau kan..saya makin tabah bah sekarang...i dont wanna hide my real character infront of people anymore..i wanna be me..it's up to them to accept me as i am or not..tidak ku kesah..saya,saya la..dia,dia la kan..the moral of the story is..jan pernah buat2 baik depan org kalo kita tidak suka sama org itu..dan jan la kita cakap2 org..kita cermin dulu diri sendiri bah..ingat bah..karma itu wujud..what goes arround come around..kalo ko buat baik, kebaikan juga la yg datang..kalo ko buat jahat, sendiri mau ingat la..ok..saja ja saya mau kasi kata2 semangat bagi orang2 yg diluar tu..remember guys, karma always happen..peace!

u know what :

pls noted it ok! haha

p/s : im sexy and i know it :P

life is

p/s : so just enjoy..:)

battle of the band by KMKK

some photo during battle of the band and the dinner :)

dear blog

ko tau ka saya rasa penat??penat suda sama apa yg saya lalui sekarang..di mana semua benda rasa tak kena.. suda la penat dengan kerja yang berlambak..tambah lagi masalah yang begini..apa lagi yang saya patut buat? penat bah mau buat2 baik..dari dulu sampai sekarang, lansung tak ada satu org pn yang saya boleh percaya..i know what happen behind me, tp saya buat2 tak tau..saya tahan saja..buat bodo saja..sebab sy betul2 tak tauk apa masalah mereka sama saya..apa juga salah saya sama mereka? apa suda saya buat bah..kalo sy ada salah, cakap bah..saya boleh terima..lali ludah saya dengan keadaan ini..mana2 saya pg, slalu macam ni..tah apa la yg saya buat? nak kata saya cakap blakang, tak da juga..sbb saya memang tak ada kawan yg boleh dipercayai pun..i know, kalo saya cakap A nanti..A-Z la yg ditambah2..i've been through that so many time bha..i know and always be ware of people around me..depan org, memang la saya blagak cool..tp blakang tadbir, ko tauk ka apa sy rasa dan tau? hah..tak tau kan..so, kesimpulannya..saya tak nak dengan mudah mempercayai org..prinsip saya, "put yourself in their shoe"..itu ja..senang kan..sebab tu saya tak nak cakap apa2 blakang2..sy tau mcm mana rasa nya..sebab sy slalu kena itu mcm..suda la tak ada tempat mauk sharing masalah..masalah yg sedia ada suda la banyak, bertambah2 lagi masalah ni..lama2 boleh meletup la ini mcm..kan??..sapa2 yg mok cakap blakang, karang la crita kau tu..inda ku kesah bah..kalo ko mok cakap sya jahat, sma saja kita..saya akui, saya memang banyak kekurangan..bukan sempurna pn saya ini..apa2 pn..i'll nener show that im too easy for u ok..sapa yang makan cili, dia la yang terasa pedas nya..penat suda bah saya..ok..tata

*hati sakit tp mampu senyum :) *

p/s : beware of dog (pa kah kena mengena?) hahaha..

proud of being 1 of them..:)

dear reader,

im gonna say that, i really2 proud to be a orang ulu family..just now, we have ort dance practice for this saturday..while we're practice, i feel like i was in my village..suasana sana kan. betul2 macam di kampung.. it's make me miss my village a lot..all the aunties2 and uncles2 making some jokes and laugh together..begitulah gaya kami orang ulu..di mana2 saja sentiasa happening..

the house owner also has prepare some "tea-breake" for us..ini lagi la kasi mengeratkan silatuahim antara satu sama lain..seriously..im having fun with them..:)

i learn a new dance style from this aunties..we all learn their dance..it a bit diffrence from our style..their dance a bit faster and jumpy2..while, our style is more to ayu and slow..:)

thats why we all call orang ulu..but the glass 1 is not alcohol..it's a tea..:)

i just love this keropok..lama suda tak makan ni..masa kecik2, my mom slalu masak..all the memories when i was once a chil come back after 1 bite of this keropok..hahaha

the uncles are playing music for us..such a happening scenario! :)

p/s : just be proud of ur self, ur family and ur race..:)

saturday evening..

i dont know what to do..so just wanna sharing some photos.. :)

bed and closet :D

my very 1st achievement in futsal sport..:)

my 2nd boyfriend..i dont mean the wallpaper..i mean the phone..:D :D

life :)

things i use everyday

he give this 1 for me

and all of the above is been capture by my verry2 bestest friend in the world! --->

tadaaaa..^^

p/s : guys..just enjoy ur life while u still can..life is short remember. :)

I NEED MONEY!!

adoh!!! how i wish i got a lots of money now...akai..nang kering gilak2 eh..sikda alu duit lam wallet or bank! adoiyai...minyak keta dah sebar tinggal..kdt hp..semadi mintak share..ya pn mun ada org mok ngeshare tek..ahhhhh...rasa cam mok pg cari pokok duit jak..sak nyaman petik jak dari pokok duit ya..

oii budak..bak sini duit ko..ko masih budak..blum dapat penggang duit banyak ya....ah..meliur nangga duit kat tangan budak tok! =.="

p/s : berjimat cermat amalan mulia < madah org, sendiri sik berjimat>..ekekeke

DedeQ

edeq..aunty miss u bah..hais..now the house become silent again..after edeq went back to miri..my house suddenly LONELY!

waaaa..how i wish edeq is here and play with me..for a few days, she's always looking for me and play with me..sometimes, bring me karaoke with her..now she's back to miri and left her car baloon over here..everytime i saw that baloon, i remember how she jump and jump to catch the balloon..

ee..for my dear edeq..aunty wanna tell u..aunty misseeddddd u so much!!! when will we meet again? cant wait to see u and odelia..:D

naahhhh..like aunty like niece..haha

haihh~

hais...lots of disappointing things happen lately..workplace,muet,jobs,study..i guess, i am really stress during this whole week..i even dont know how to release my tension out..what i want right now is beautiful beach, with a great sunset..and have my boyfie around me ..dehh..how i wish i can go for some vacations with my lil' love at some beach bah..ngeee~

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even though a lots of stress things is going around, but some happiness things happen..1st, my mr.obey got job, and he works at the same place with me..but attach at library..then..i've receive a good news from my sis..it such a suprise for me..with God's will, something big gonna happen in this year in my family..(amenn..)..and my big browith his mini family will come to Kapit to celebrate CNY with us..it's such a good news for me..

thanks God..in my stressfull moment, YOU give me some good news and make me happy..

ok dear reader, may God bless u and all ur family..for the chinese reader, Happy Chinese New Year..may this year bring a lots of luck for u guys..:D :D

lots of love :

haha..some new me on new year :D :D

p/s : enjoy ur life while u can..:)

some AWSOME pictures capture by me and my friends :D

me and my friends was looking for the best place and part to taking picture in my hometown..

the empty road

happy picture..:D

love

angry bird..:D